This is poetry that has to do with real feelings. These Poems haven't
just com off the top of y head.They're real feelings.I'm aware of the6
fact that most of these poems are pretty depressing. That's mostly because
i write poetry when i'm upset.It's my get away so if you're in search for
happy poetry right now..i'm warning you..leave while you still can..enjoy..or
try to atleast
Stay
I hug my wet pillow,
Tight to my body.
As my tears fall,
soaking the floor.
I know i love you,
but i dont know why.
I didnt even get the chance to tell you.
It seems like in a way,
You have died.
Even though you havent,
I'll remember you still.
Not letting the times we shared.
Escape my memory.
I have an iron will.
I hope for the day.
When you'll come back,
from being so far away.
And we'll rest in each other's arms.
Together again.
The love i have for you grows,
with each passing day.
And i ignore others,
while they continue to say.
Your love wont come back,
not for millions of days.
I wont replace you,
i'll keep you forever in my heart,
but this is only for the days we'll be apart.
I know deep inside.
There will come a day.
When you'll be back in my life.
Maybe this time you'll stay..
Ashli Kerrigan †99†
Torn Apart
I didnt expect this to happen,
I didnt expect it at all.
Yet another thing in my life,
Seems to plummet and fall.
Whats left lies,
Shattered on the ground.
Not a glue in the world could save it now.
I keep my head held high,
And think only happy thoughts.
I dont want anyone to see,
That i'm being torn apart.
Ashli Kerrigan †99†
The Game
We walk out on the dance floor,
look around for a little while.
Our eyes meet,
as do our hearts,
and our minds.
We exchange a few words,
even maybe a smile or two.
These few moments we have together,
seem to last forever.
This is the first time we've ever met,
or talked.
Now i can stop admiring you from afar,
and only hope you feel the same.
My doubts are taking over,
I dont know how you feel.
I've been sitting around just thinking,
about you and me,
and the way i feel.
Were we meant to be?
Or is it just a game?
An unfair game.
With no rules,
we maybe just one,
hearts are the prizes,and or pawns.
Either i take yours or you take mine.
A game of chance,
maybe even luck.
I just dont know how its fair,
to have my feelings run amuck.
Only time will tell who may win this game.
I'll just sit back and wait it out.
While one of us strives to win the game.
Or hope to get a tie.
Ashli Kerrigan †99†
Love You
Late at night,
The rain gently taps on my window sill.
I wish you were here.
But I know you cant be.
You wont be.
It drives me mad inside.
Drives me mad , To want you like this.
To want you in this life.
The will is there.
The strongest will I have.
But it wont last forever.
I know I may never get what I want.
But you cant blame me for dreaming.
It always helps to know,
It helps to know we look up into the same sky.
We live under the same sun.
I cant shake you from my thoughts,
It hurts inside.
It hurts that your not here.
I tried to move on.
I tried but I cant,
I wont.
I’ve made mistakes.
Probably more than my share.
I cant help that.
I love you.
Ashli Kerrigan †98†
Love Me
Love me,
Love me tender.
Say you’ll never let me go.
Whisper in my ear.
The things you know I wanna hear.
That you wont leave me again.
That this wont become a trend.
Because you love me.
Or atleast you say you love me.
Do you love me?
Please...
Love me.
Love me?
Thats what you said.
Those werent the words you wanted to hear.
You didnt think it’d get this far.
But it has.
Because I love you.
Your never there.
But I love you.
Do you love me?
Love me...
The words are special.
Don’t be afraid.
Say them if you mean them.
Dont tell them as a lie.
I love you.
Do you love me?
Please say you love me.
Love me.
It hurts that your never here.
Although there is nothing I can do to make you near.
My heart feels as though its been torn in 2.
I never thought you would make me think this.
Think that fake love might exist.
It is there.
The love between you and I.
But if its true..
If its true I dont know.
Love me.
Love me tender.
Please,
Please just love me.
Ashli Kerrigan†98†
Someday
I watch the world through another’s eyes.
I look up at star filled skys.
Only to wonder what could of been.
Or what has been. But isnt anymore.
I miss you more than words can say.
I wonder why you arent here with me on this day.
Then I remember the way you left.
The day you left.
The day you left me alone.
Oh so alone.
I stood and watched you go,
I watched as my heart broke.
I shook my head,
You didnt notice I was there.
I wondered how you could leave me like this.
Standing there I watched you go.
Now im alone.
Oh so alone.
Now I sit here,
And wonder why,
Why I ever let you go.
What happened?
I cant answer any of my own questions.
But I know you can.
I dont know why or how.
But you can.
Maybe someday you will.
Ashli Kerrigan †98†
Like Me
you said you want to be just like me.
The thought scares me.
I dont think the world would be the same,
With 2 people like me.
I dont think anyone could handle it.
I'm not as perfect,
As you think i am.
You may keep saying so.
But i know soon enough it will all change.
You think with my dimpled smile,
Makes me some sort of angel.
But beneath the smile plastered on my face,
There's the real me.
The me who wont be walked on.
The me who wont put up with shit.
The me you dont know.
You think If you could be like me,
Everything would be great.
For you have told me so.
I think that if you werent like me,
You would be better off.
Just remember if you really want to be like me,
Dont forget to know me first.
Ashli kerrigan †98†
Drag Me Down
I'm falling,
Yeah thats me.
The one who's falling.
You laugh,
I cry.
And then I fall.
MY life is falling,
Everything is falling into a deep abyss.
But thats not the point.
The point is your dragging me down.
With your love,
Which may be fake,
or may be real i wouldn't know.
All i know is im falling.
Because your dragging me down.
Ashli Kerrigan †98†
Okay people here's a warning i dont have a title for this poem...If anyone has any ideas feel free to share. Okay and to all you people who think im really depressed right now im not. These poems are jus' written at times when im upset. But the thing is for some reason i cant write happy poems, i can write poems making fun of people but i cant right happy poems about my life.. It just wont work.
Every bruise i'm given,
Reminds me of the way.
The way my life changed so suddenly.
On that fateful day.
I was told it couldnt change,
It wouldnt change.
I sing some songs alone in my room.
And think about the way this happened.
Every song brings on more tears,
As i sit there alone and cry,
All i can think of is why,
Why all these things happen.
To me, to anyone.
I know this hurt wont ever go away.
And more bruises keep coming,
Some physical,some emotional.
But they all hurt in every way.
Ashli Kerrigan †98†